I'll.. stay in A.S.S.

I don't know why they want me. But hopefully, this stupid stage that I'm going through will pass and I'll be the "happy me" again. Ugh! I'm so tired of ping-ponging back and forth through emotions such as this. My mom taught me to have no emotion? Well, I'm motherfucking full of it. My mom says I'm nothing?

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I'M NOT! GOD DAMNIT, I'M NOT. Why does what my mom say and do still affect me? Why do I let her affect me? I don't know. I'm just some messed up girl with a lot of issues. Issues, issues, issues. I hate issues. I want to see A.S.S. now. I want to go to MGL... but I can't. I could probably go tommorow, but no funds or a ride. I don't want to ask Isaac, oh no. He's done enough for me and I feel bad if I asked him for anything else. Ugh, I can't wait until Saturday when I'll be OUT OF THE HOUSE all day long. We don't have basketball practice until Wednesday [my couach called me last night and confirmed that] but I'm going to the JV and varsity games on Saturday and be the score-keeper person and get community service. Damnit! I forgot to get that sheet for community service! Craaaaaaaaaap. Oh well.. I'll go anyway. Afterwards, I'm going to hang out with Ryan and watch a movie with him and Elena to celebrate is birthday.

*sigh*

I'm hungry.........